Last weekend, I went for a conference by Jackie Pullinger. After I heard her speak....I had difficulty falling asleep at night cos I kept thinking about her. (haha...)

It was simply a very very humbling experience as I hear of how she served the poor. As she spoke about the drug addicts and people who lived in the slums, it suddenly dawned upon me that I am poor too. But in a very different way.....I am very very poor in my understanding of God's love and I juz kept crying when I thought of that. (Thank God for Kaiyun who prayed for me!)

Jackie Pullinger shared about how God instructed the Isrealites not to store up manna for themselves....cos it'll go bad anyway. And I thought that was how exactly i'm leading my life. I never dared to give away all of my heart to love those people that God has placed in my life. I always made sure I had reserves...cos I'm afraid that i'll be too burnt out. No wonder, I am never able to have a bigger heart....only when we use up ours then we can have His.

So I was very much reminded of a friend whom I have not visited in a while....simply bcos I was too busy in school and also bcos I started to find that I am unable to help her in any practical way at all. But now I know. To bless somebody is very simple...we juz have to give watever that we can give....regardless of whether they appreciate it or whether it will make a big difference or not. And that's exactly what i'm going to do now.....I will juz give her watever that I can give....